Cornbread and Risotto

Saffron, truffles, pesto, olives, parmigiano-reggiano, mustard, garlic, rice balls, fish sauce, lavender, cardamon pods, curry, chocolate, vanilla, carob, authentic, nuevo, moon cakes, pecans ... My eyes scan down the list, relishing favorites, wilting at loves that would never be and searching for some new and marvelous discovery. These things that traipse even in my dreams. Mysteries beyond my reach. Seeking flavors and textures I only can imagine, and what rises even above this height? Not even the glorious tools. The masters techniques. The ultimate wonder. No better example than pulled noodles, thin enough to fit three strands through the eye of a needle. Mousse whipped by hand. The perfect croisaunt. Pastry. Pie. Chocolate creation. The froth of hand made hot chocolate from mexico... some snippet of a travel show lodged in my brain. Roast and grind... nuts cinnamon vanilla chocolate cream... whirling molinillo... a beverage. Could even this mentally exaggerated perfection be better? Better than what is best. All the flavors... or simply one. A riot of texture to a single goal. Perfection.

My love affair with food.

Always

I feel beautifully eccentric today. The ditsy mood of the week hasnt passed however. I had to do some trixy driving in a deserted street to park so I could leap from the vehicle and capture a picture. The light was sending a cascade of sparkles to splash over these three beautifully changing trees. As I was standing on the sidewalk trying to get them all in the frame, the homes owner walked out carrying a riffle under his arm. Well, several. He was carying them to his car. After blinking at me rather blankly he said hello. I returned his greeting and carried on about my busines. If I were a talkative person, or if I had been feeling less harrased about my photography I may have said what I was doing. Or just said these tree's are beautiful in this light, or some such phrase. As it was...

I also recycled paper today. I drove past the place so thought, why not stop today? I've had a bag in the back of my car since before it was my car. Its hand me down recycling. I was going to add more to it the other day, but someone threw it away before I took it.

I have to start working on my skirt tomarrow! You will be amazed at my handy crafts when I'm done, let me just tell you. It is hoping to be black, purple, sparkly and lacy. And if all goes well it will resemble a skirt. Im making up the pattern however so all bets of perfection are off. Pattern's never look very well in my eyes. Lets hope winging it will.

Sewing projects:

Purple/Black Punk Skirt

Christmas PJ Pants for family

Purple Plaid Flannel Rag Quilt for someone(shhh! dont tell!)

Half Penny Doesn't Cut It

BEFORE

I believe I may have successfully completed a roll of film. The jury is still out. They would like some evidence of success before celebrating. So far the condeming facts are that one, it made funny noises, and two: the counter is only at 20 but the quick cock wont cock... Which means theres no more film. There should be 24 exposures.

Well, it worked better than last time.

I went to fencing tonight. And it wasnt even barb wire! There's not a whole lot to say. Its a demanding and intellectual sort of sport. Full of finess and vocablulary, uncomfortable positions and massive leg strength. I enjoy the classic style. I think it is one of those things best to learn first.

Like photography. You appreciate it more when you know how hard it can be. When your spending your own money of film your real picky about what shot you get. You know your really supposed to have your hand up in a limp wristed monkey stance to help balance.

Some things you wouldn't ever notice if you didnt take the slow baby steps first.

AFTER: You've never seen more heavenly squash.... I cooked the heck right out of it...

The Goose Is Getting Fat

I have defrosted some pumpkin. I whipped together a pie, and now im going to make some Molasses Pumpkin Ginger Cookies. The gingery molasses part I'm making up. I'm going to add some and hope it works out. Gotta go fix my pie for a minute. It has an old premade crust, but better a pie than pumpkin tossed.

So here's my final recipe...

Gingery Pumpkin Molasses Cookies

• ½ C all-purpose flour
• 1 C whole wheat
• 1 tsp baking powder
• 1 tsp baking soda
• 2 tsp ground cinnamon
• ½ tsp ground nutmeg
• ½ tsp ground cloves
• ¼ tsp ground ginger
• ¼ tsp ground cardamon
• ½ tsp salt
• ½ C butter, softened
• 1 C sugar
• ½ C brown sugar (who can leave out brown sugar?!)
• 1 C cooked pumpkin puree (can or home made)
• 1 egg
• ¼ C molasses
• 1 tsp vanilla extract
  

Preheat oven to 350° F (175° C).

Combine flour, baking powder, baking soda, cinnamon, nutmeg, ground cloves, ginger, and salt; set aside.

In a medium bowl, cream together the butter and sugar. Add pumpkin, egg, molasses, and vanilla to butter mixture, and beat until creamy.

Mix in dry ingredients. Drop on cookie sheet by tablespoonfuls.

Bake for 15 to 20 minutes in the preheated oven. Cool cookies on rack.
Makes about 3 dozen

I suggest making them small. They turn out very cake like. I should have expected it. Chewy with crispy chewy edges, but its the cake sort of chewey. They tast pretty good, and even better when I added walnuts. My verdict, probably wont make again. I like using the pumpkin and the wheat flour, but I was looking for something with a ginger snap sort of chewy texture. I'm pleased though.

And it turns out I'm an idiot. Why my camera wasnt turning anymore was because I had it cocked. I took a pic of my lense cap. Another lesson learned at the expense of film.

All Of The Night

A sure way to learn something is to fail at it terribly. I went out photographing today, with my new camera. The film wasnt loaded correctly. Every picture I took wasnt really taken. Its a dissapointment. But today wasnt bust. I lost my pretties, but I know how to use my camera better. I am a bit more selective with my choice of picture. This exploit is shaping up to be expensive.

I want to dabble in interior design. Really, I just want to create a haven of my own. I want my room to be exactly how I wish it to be. I want saturated colors in apealing combo's. Neutral shades are wonderful and versitile... but it would be fun to do something drastic. I want something green and purple maybe. Brown and purple is pretty too though. And blue is a good color. Do I want it to be warm or cool? Will I match the furnature or make it contrast? What room should I take over? The basement is a bigger more versitile room. Its also in a basment. Add +10 creepyness factor, and about +20 for increased bug habitation. The other thing is that I'm a seni0r. Its a bit late to be designing my room. How long will I stay in it?

What will I be doing next year? I'm full of questions. Who has the answers? I have to make them up I guess. I have no qualms about ignoring the stigma of living with ones parents. Really its the guys who have the full brunt of the disdain. I think its economical. It has its limitations in socialization. You still have to deal with family matters. But you can get your mother to make you breakfast. You have someone to tell your day to who might actually care. Relatively worry free. Dont worry, I've already informed my parents of the possibility of them never being free of me.

Even if I do live at home forever I'll have my growth experience. If I'm going abroad for months at a time it should make up for living at home. -.o

Audio Classics

The season of autumn has always seemed... incomprehensibly fast. As though if I fail to enjoy it today I will miss it for the year. I steal every glance that I can at the changing tree's and the small rain clouds skulking across the sky. It doesnt feel like fall is long enough for all the holidays that fall under it. Can it last till Thanksgiving? I suppose it would be due to the cold weather hear that triggers it early. I fear my camera will not arive to catch the color.

I am currently reading the Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne. Not entirely by choice, but at the demands of curriculum as always. I could never get myself to without a pinch of force. It is not bad though, force aside. I have found an audio collection of classics including the afore mentioned Scarlet Letter. A robot is reading it. I accept that.

http://freeclassicaudiobooks.com/page2.htm

This time next year I hope to be somewhere in Europe. It is a time that would seem almost convenient and yet... it would not at all be. I would hate to miss Christmas with my family, even for Europe. What would be preferable is to depart after Christmas. It would give me a semester at college to warm up, so as to be ready for living abroad. The limitation of this would only be the fundage.

At any rate, by January next year, I hope to be in Europe.

Creative Sweet

The tree's are changing. There's some tree's down the street that look amazing. They dont change into one color. Each leave dabbles in one color then the next. The texture of the wide eliptical leaves creates an overlay looking almost as though a painter had created them. Pink to purple, green to yelow to orange and red. The black of the branches veining the mass of color. My words do them as much injustice as the picture.

I got some odd looks taking pictures of peoples shrubberies today.

While I was traipsing about town looking for photo ops, there was a little girl swinging on a modified tires wing, and she waved at me. Made my day.

Nike Said It Best

Just do it.

Things are never done if you never start them. And, as always, here's no time like the present, for, you see, things are always done in the present. Everything you have ever done, has been done in a present. Now they are past. To make them past you must have them be created in the present. Futures are vague, infinite, and fleeting. Pluck the ideas you want from it, fill up your present, and make one heck of a past. If you want to do something, and have thought through it, and have been meaning too.... Just do it.

(Subway stairs New York)
I went to New York June of last year. I did so because at the begining of the school year when it was proposed, my mother suggested we do it. Somehow we did find the money... it was there. And I made the payments and I got on the plane, had one heck of a time (even though I was horribly sick), and basicly, Just did it.

Its hard to keep up. Just doing things. There's being tired, or ill, or having things come up... But eventually if you keep thinking about it... You might find the motivation again...

But mainly, if you want to do it in your lifetime, do it now. Start it now. Just because you think you cant... You'll never know untill your doing it.

So... Just do it, or you never will.